CHANMINA [ちゃんみな] - PAIN IS BEAUTY (English translation)

I haven’t changed a bit from the past
Even now I'm still lonely girl
I stumble upon this crossroad all the time
And every time I have to choose my future
I'm unsure about choosing yes or no
But I have to pick what's supposed to be right

No one really understands anyway
I want to stop getting hurt
I couldn't ask them to understand me
So I just glared

I know the opinion of those around you means everything
But I really don't want to say fake shit
I want to be protected
Even if it's just a bit
So I kept walking wearing love sleeves
Because it felt like it made me stronger

Everybody's approaching me
With their words full of lies
I want to get out of here
I can do anything so I said

Go away, leave me alone
I'm going to put on a brave face
Hoping that I look strong enough
Did it look like I was strong?
So try me, I love the pain
Now I finally got to understand it
That pain is beautiful
And it made me beautiful
Pain is beauty

Yeah, society has always been cold
And it always asks me to show common sense
There's no ideal type, there's no ultimate truth
So I just embrace my insecurities and spread my wings
Show 'em you're going to fight, baby
And come back when you're exhausted
That's the kind of song I want to sing to those that matter to me

When ordinary words hit me violently
I just want to keep feeling the pain that way
So many songs I've learnt listening by ear
I sang them so casually
But still, that was really important to me

I didn't realize I was actually loved
Now I don't care about what they say anymore
Go and hate me all you want

Go away, leave me alone
I'm going to put on a brave face
Hoping that I look strong enough
Did it look like I was strong?
So try me, I love the pain
Now I finally got to understand it
That pain is beautiful
And it made me beautiful

Will this sadness fade away as I keep getting older?
All the blood and tears that I've shed
Will they turn into something beautiful?

Go away, leave me alone
I'm going to put on a brave face
Hoping that I look strong enough
Did it look like I was strong?
So try me, I love the pain
Now I finally got to understand it
That pain is beautiful
And it made me beautiful
Pain is beauty

Notes:
Kanji lyrics @ Genius
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